I miss you, even though I know I shouldn’t even think about missing you. You were my everything, if a day passed by without me talking to you was just a disaster. We’re no longer together, and it’s hard to know that I won’t talk to you every moment of my life anymore. Being away from you feels like an illusion. Hard to believe, yet real in some sort of way.
I’m empty inside. It might sound like a cliché saying, yet it’s true. Even though I never believed in someone feeling empty inside, now I do, because I’m one of those people who is feeling empty inside. And it feels real, it feels like there’s an empty spot in my heart. You leaving me created that empty spot, and no one can fill it again but you.
I lost you. I also lost myself along the way. My life has been a very cluttered image since the last time we smiled together. And it’s so hard to re-organize it like before! I’m just unbalanced.
BUT, the most disturbing word anyone could say while trying to explain something. But, life goes on. With or without you. No one can be stuck in a certain point of their life, they’ve ought to move on no matter what. YES, it HURTS. But what’s the meaning of life without getting hurt at least once? Nothing.
Heartaches. I go through those heartaches every night, trying to forget that I used to call you late at night to say good morning just because of time differences! I can feel pain with every heartbeat, it brings tears into my eyes. I hate it. I try to hold my feelings and keep them deep inside of me, but my tears talk for me. And that’s simply something I can’t help.
I’m moving on. Because I need to be prepared for my hidden future.
I MISS YOU.
(PS: it’s not about a guy, it’s about a best friend.)